Justice

Vengeance is mine sayeth the lord.

Yeah well you know what? If they're still breathing then god isnt doing that great of a job.

I know i know... kinda jacked up...

Seriously though, i dont even think its about justice. It would just make me feel better... probably wouldnt solve anything...

Still...

Que?

I dont know what kind of sick, weird girl jam cd is playing in my car while i drive right now...

But i kinda like it...

The way i feel

The way i feel is not good...

I hate not knowing what to do...

And i hate stupid emo blog posts...

Damn...

Bachelor party buddha

The brother of my friend, the G, said something to me last night that scared me to death...

"Your daughter is going to look for a guy that's like you."

Shit.

A sleeping baby and wife...

Means that i get to clean the living room, listen to kick ass music and then do some writing...

Life updates: no more overtime, and will be slinging pizza every other sunday in madera come 2010. In anticipation of school.

And according to the commercial, when america coughs they use delsym... good to know.

Jesus is not my best friend...

I think everyone (or maybe just most people) require a level or relationship that god cannot provide...

i cant hang out with god... we cant shoot the proverbial shit... he has absolutely no flaws with which i can relate to. And as a guy once said "that which draws me closest to my friends is the failures we share".

So if god cant fulfill my need for friendship... well then... someone needs to... for me thats my wife... for others... i dunno...

911

I called 911 for iris last night. She was choking on her own phlegm... shes okay now but it made me realize a couple things...

1. My instincts regarding baby saving are pretty damn good... apparently i did everything right

2. I love my daughter a lot... like, more than i even realized...

3. I remain uber calm in high stress, high danger, high whatever situations... which is good

Hmmm

So it turns out the blogger client i used on my phone decided not to post my last few entries... no worries... no client app. Taste defeat failure...

So im back up and posting. Im sure all 4 of you who read this are thrilled...

Stay tuned.

pandas

am I the only one who thinks the guy on the panda express commercials sounds like he molests our black and white bear brethren?

... okay maybe I am...

couple things...

one... I freaking love my little brother. he's a great gift from god... though I'm not sure about the whole from god thing... sure god allowed it... but how active was he involved? who knows...

two... to write love on her arms is for some reason near and dear to my heart. I may explain more about that reason later...

husbandry

I wish marriage were like building a house... blueprints... manual labor... hitting stuff with a hammer... the closest I ever get seems to be "I'm sorry, I don't speak spanish".

yes... todays post was racist... but honest.

writing

andrew schwab has once again renewed my faith in christian poetry. for the longest time I only knew probably one person who wrote good poetry and was faith driven... now I know two. that is a 100% growth... let's keep that rolling...

turn, turn, turn (it off)

what neither the byrds, nor king solomon mentioned was that there is also a time to turn a server housing your clients' domain off for maintenance... that time is NOT 2 in the afternoon... fools...

realization

it sucks when you realize you are inneffective as a human being... i may post more on that later... for now, you get the emo post

lyrics

"i cannot live i cant breathe unless you do this with me"

i used to think i sang those lyrics to my wife and daughter... now i realize that god and myself are in the audience too...

8 am

sitting here outside of work dreading going in... ive realized that i am super irresponsible which doesnt play well with diabetes, marriage, or fatherhood. or anything really... i love my family. see you kiddies later

test

this is a test

trip to millerton lake

good photo and a good time with wife, child and little brother...

square one... again

so this is my mobile blog. quick hits of my life and mind that may or may not pack a punch... sort of like... shots of vodka. hence the name. stay tuned kiddies, and we'll see where this goes